The point where I can’t even begin to understand who I am, what I want. I could list my likes and hobbies, but I don’t know if I could link them together with a personality. I feel like the things that I have wanted are constructs of my environment and what others expect from me.
I’ve been emotionally controlled for years now, and I cannot remember what I as a person want for myself. I can’t function.
So this one time Vriska asked John to go on a pale date to ride roller coasters in the middle of the coldest winter in the last decade because it would be totally “hardcore!!!!!!!!” and so they went and it was awesome, but then they got sick and had to stay in bed for two weeks. The end!!!
HEHEHEE, YOU ALREADY KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS IN EVERY WAY IMAGINABLE BUT LET ME JUST SCREAM AT THIS AGAIN